My 1st brief update to Art Team experiance.

My 1st Team Meeting.

• I was scared and nervous because it was my first time.
• I was practicing way to much and going over my lines, over and over again I think tats where I got my nervous feelings from. I wanted to deliver the way I practice, the more I was tiring to be someone else I was falling away from myself.
• I showed my weakness to the team which made me even more vulnerable and less confident, I place myself in a spotlight and didn't know how to get out of it. This made me even more nervous that, I totally lost confident in myself. 
• During the meeting, every lead was going over their tasks, and I wasn't paying attention to what they were saying but how they were delivering Thieu message. Man, by now my confident was gone, and its my turn to delver. Few guys made mocking eye contact with me where I am already cautious (funny those weird feelings are coming back as i write, but this is good that I can document it and learn from my past.)
• In my monthly report, my voice was shaking and I was getting into to much detailed on our teams status. There was a couple of times where my brain failed to think, which lead into a pause. Finally i finished my report, and I wasn't happy on what i said.
• I was not confident in what i was saying because i was paying attention to what people were thinking about me. I also learn to stay to the point and, deliver short and sweet.

My 2nd Team Meeting.

• This time my report was lot smoother then before, I was short and sweet, but I had a little bit of nervous pauses, but I never gave up. I needed to deliver this with full confident this time. 
• I had all my facts down and  made a really cool, management tool that help me break down everyone status. I gave their highlights and told them about whats coming next.
• Everyone was proud of me and my delivery, they saw my improvements and knew that I was committed in making a change to myself. Everyone was supportive this time and i didn't let them know I was nervous.
• So this was a great step for public speaking that next time I will be better.